Can I make it?

Friends are getting married one by one, "when would be my turn?" they asked. I remain silent and smile.

Noone would understand the horrible fear in within myself, it just haunted me continuosly. I am living in fear whenever touch on this topic. Yes, I am being avoidant whenever this topic raised up. I never dare to think it thoroughly. I A-F-R-A-I-D!!!

Yes, I am afraid. I even dreamt of how worse my life would like when I have my own family.
-Lost my child in supermarket.
-Put on fight with him and divorce.
-His mom guards me when I am doing house keeping.
-Over-dependent until lost myself.
-Prepare food for him and house burn at last.
-Frustrated and torture my child.
What a disaster, these really make me afraid to become wife of him.

I afraid that I could not be a good wife to him.
I afraid that I could not manage a good relationship with his family.
I afraid that I could not be an understanding life-partner to him.
I afraid that I could not satisfy him.
I afraid....
The most important thing is that I afraid the sweetness, the tolerance, the understanding, the loving, the patience in the current not-yet-married-relationship would change. I afraid! I really do.

I never dare to imagine how my life would be if I become his wife. I never dare to answer his question when he asks me the relevant questions.

相见容易，相处难。彼此现在的相处是否会在日后结婚后变卦， 没人可以给于我一个担保。我真的害怕。

My BABY

My christmas present from my significant one. Hubby knew I scare of doggy actually, thus, in order for me to overcome this fear, he decided to buy me a puppy.

Now I introduce this naughty fella (Tze Shu) to you guy.

Name: Baby
Age: 2 months old
Gender: Male

This pic took when hubby and I had our dinner at Station one.

Baby was slept when we are on the way to my home. cute*

It's bedtime!. Time to sleep, and put blanket for him. For fun*

He doesn't like to play witht his ball. He is getting fatter actually.