Chose = Enjoy

It's just a month ever since I joined this new company.. I knew its not an easy task to survive here, but  I chose to accept this challenge and prepared myself of going to have a work-life imbalance lifestyle.. Nobody force me to do this, but myself..

From the 1st day I reported to work, I told myself that I have to put more efforts and build up reputation again.. Therefore I willing to do anything that assigned to me and do my very best to absorb whatever information that sent to me.. This one month time, I have attended countless training and meetings, went for numbers of client meetings, conducted numbers of interviews with candidates and bla bla bla.. But still, I am still in the midst of learn to juggle around to achieve all the KPIs.. Seriously, there is no free time slot for you to relax or do something else.. And there is the reason why there is no much different although Facebook or Skype are blocked..

Although I am one of the newbies in this batch, somehow, from their body languages and the questions they asked me, I know, I need to perform... for they have high expectation on me! ...for I am the only consultant from recruitment background while the rest of the consultants are from the industry they covering now.. ...for I used to be the top performer in my former company... for I earned good comments and recommendations from others.. And now, trust me, I am stress like hell!! I am constantly remind myself to be careful and alert and need to put more effort into the tasks I do. Afterall result is what they wanted the most and that's the only thing that can prove them didn't made the wrong decision to take me in.. Therefore, I fight, I do, I learn, I ask and I study...

My team undeniably supportive to me, they never pressure me but helped me a lot.. I appreciate.. And same to my manager.. I was once a leader of 2 juniors, I understood the feelings and the pressures from the management..  Therefore, I want to perform and then he wouldnt get question by the management.. And Today, I cried!! I can't imagine that I cried out of sudden!! And I know, I am pushing myself too hard and I am pressured myself too much..

But anyhow, I won't give up..
I chose this as my career, therefore I enjoy the toughness, the challenges and the obstacles I would face..
I chose to let go everything I had in the past, therefore I am enjoy and welcome the weird alien IT terminalogy that possible to facilitate me to build up my own empire..

I chose, therefore I enjoy.. No matter what shits happen...
I enjoy talking to people from different level...
I enjoy listen to their stories and experiences...
I enjoy the challenges I have on human..
I enjoy seeing the uncertainties on mankind..
I enjoy doing negotiation..
I enjoy the process...
I enjoy the career I chose...
Therefore I am thankful to the obstacles I am having now and glad that I still able to take it..

Though cried, but I will not give up!! Never!!

May 2013

Time flies..

It's been a month didn't update anything here.. In fact, May 2013 was a great month to me and what happened in this month had brought me significant changes and development in almost every aspects in my life.. I'm seriously anticipate the constant growth within myself..


Highlights of my days in May 2013:

• Joined a new company located at KL city.. Allowed myself to forego what I had gained in the past and started it again.. 
• Glad that I had chose to escape from the comfort zone and now building a stable foundation at my dream destination despite how much fears and worries I have on the unforeseen uncertainties in the near future
• Started to rely on public transport that seriously drives me crazy especially during the peak hours.. Personally don't think there is any different on the volume of the crowd during the peak hour or normal hour.. 
• Learnt a new technology from someone and started to apply it in my daily life... Discipline and constant practice is definitely needed to master this new technology.. When it introduce to the world, I am sure you will amazed by it..
• Discovered new meaning of "love" and how amazing it could be.. A new level of love..
• Proud to have BFF in my life and everyone that offered help to me... Those who chose to trust me and accept who am I and those who supported me and value the efforts I put in my work and seriously appreciate my capabilities... 

Rainbows after the rain, it's indeed happened! I know I am blessed and loved by anyone 

I am the luckiest girl with lots of loves surround me... 

Muacksss.....