Saturday, August 4, 2007

I found myself

Finally, God bless, I found 'myself', the real Rachel is back!!! I can be my real self, needless to suppress my own feelings anymore and suffer alone. All the sadness and sufferness were gone, and I'm able to see things clear right now. What happened in the past just make it as memories, it cant be changed nor start it over again, past is past, let it be. For now, justa appreciate what going happen the next and thanks to all my friends that help me alot when I'm sad. Thanks u guys, u all are so lovely, muakcs~

After the incident, I have to start a new journey all over again, and remind myself not to repeat the same mistake, I have to learn something from every mistake that I made. Without learning from mistakes, I will never grow, I will always be the naive girl. No way!!

Looking for something and someone that can brighten my life is what I do right now. Hanging around with friends is what I enjoy everytime, especially when bowl -lou yeh, dai siu, 5 yi tai, and 3 suk gong are my best playmate, ngiek ngiek =) Chit-chat with a friend who in SA now is a 'job' that I will never miss to do nowadays, keep in touch is the best thing that we can do for each other right now. Things will happen when the time is reached, just let it be. But I wish there is a miracle between us.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Really delighted to hear that you found yourself and got yourself a new life!=) Hmm...just a small reminder to you is that never try to put relationships as the ONLY purpose in life,ok?

Well, hope that we will keep in touch always and promise that when i come back, we will be as close as we used to be lasted time,ok?

Remember last time we agreed to strive towards out goal (about our future) together? do not forget ya =) take care always!

Cheriecey said...

I'm having stomachache when I'm reading your entries. Can the fonts be bigger for the test results (those posts that describe who you're)?
Life is full of ups & downs. The most devastating ones would be relationship craps~ We learned usually after each mistake. We got regretted, then we remind ourselves not have such chance again in the future. We always know what it means to have unpredictable unforeseen future but we usually are challenged by the uncertainty, for it drives us to get ready for every crisis. We struggled. We got tired. We sighed.

After we can answer "what's the point of living?", then we stand up & continue our journey. We experience how this entire cycle is repeated endlessly. To me, life is just plain simple. We can remain passive in other's eyes, but who cares, we know we are active participant in pursuing what we want. I may just sit at home raising children, letting my time be occupied by kids & kitchen. Some people think I'm unproductive. Yet, I'm still contributing in other ways. That's the dilemma we have to tolerate. As long as we can be competent in our world, damn those gossipers who mind other's business!

Cheers for spiritual strength!
God knows we take nothing for granted!