累了

我累了 心累了。。。

再也无能为力了。。。

我尽力了，但还是改变不了什么。。。

丁点的变化都没有。。。

我无言以对，你依然觉得自己是对的。。。

不被珍惜 不被谅解。。。

我的心好痛 碎了 撒落满地 拼凑不起来。。。

我真的累了。。。

算了吧。。。

欲哭无泪 干了 无供应了。。。

该任由你摆布了吧？

该变成你的专署傀儡了吧？

这是你要的结局吗？

PLease

What you want from me???? What you want from me huh???? Tell me!!! Tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is me, when I said I don't want to talk, I mean it. Why you just cant get the meaning? Yeah, you did the correct response in the first sentence that came from your mouth, but not the next. Why you still wanna to say: "Just tell me what is it all about" after I told you is not relavant to you? Why?? I don understand. Really dont understand.

I know you want to know what happen to me and what makes me so frustrated, but it is not the right time for me to tell you what happened. I am in piss! I know you have the intention to try to solve the problem for me, but I just want to remain silent in that time, why you cant understand about this??? I am not a typical girl, I dont want any verbal comfort when I am sad, just leave me alone and be there for me, when I want to tell, I will tell when I am alright. But why you still ask when I will tell you?? WHy???

Why you keep suspecting I will share the problem to others and leave you behind as if you are not a good partner??? Why???? Tell me!! Am I really untrustable huh???? Tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T-E-L-L M-E!!!

I know you want to help me, but not this moment of time, I just want to be alone.

GOD DAMN THING!!!

Duh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What the fuck!! Yes! I am very PISS right now. What the god damn thing!!!

You, who said that we need to finish all the housework then only can go to school!! Yeah, I did, EVERYDAY!! I scarifice my time, reajust my sleep time and wake up in the early morning everyday just to do the allocated houseworks before I went to college regardless how sleepy I am and how rush I am.

You, the god damn thing who always tend to wake up late in the morning and leave all the works to others to finish up!! Not only last for once or twice, but EVERYDAY!!! Not that I want to be so calculative, but this is just unfair!!! U-N-F-A-I-R!!! Know what is it??

I really hate to be here, do you know that???? There is no fair issue in here!! N-O!!!! I HATE IT!!! I hate living in lies and living in unfair!!! I JUST HATE IT!!!

You, the god damn thing!!! Are you really thought there is noone know that you took half of the money besides than her??? Now I tell you, I KNOW IT!!!! She keeps remind me not to reveal this secret to him, else he will ignore you for the rest of your life. Initially, I can take it as nothing happen, but as the time passed, I really cant make it. You just simple waste the money like that and spent in on those shits!!! And, your damn action behavior!! Do you really think that you need not to respect me as your sister huh??? Do you really think so?? She knew that you took the money, but she remain silent, why? Just because she borrow money from you, and thus afraid of he might scold her as well. But is she get to know that this actually even shape you to the extreme??? HUH?????

Its really unfair!! You not behave, but they scold me as well. What the world?? Just because I am your sister??? Bull shit!! I really pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am not satisfy with all of these!!! Bastard!!

You, everyday, once reach home from college, straight away lock yourself in room and sleep and never give a hand when we need!! What the fuck!! Do you really treat yourself as princess who lives in castle??? Dont day dream!! You are not ok!! Y-OU-R-E-N-O-T!!!

Not that I am calculative, but its just unfair!! Your insufferably arrogant face!! You, just will be a failure no matter how successful you are in the future, not that I want to curse you, but because of your can't-be-helped / can't-be-changed personality!!

I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today's story

Sot plug!

Was had breakfast with friends in the morning just now, thought to have a pleasant breakfast.

Once reached, my friend, Miss C told me about the unfair and rudeness treatment from an illegal worker at the food court there. She was seriously pissed by worker's behavior. She had decided to revenge by poured the unfinished food on table and asked this stupid female worker to clean it up.

The story was as below:

After class, we decided to have our breakfast at the food court at HP tour at Damansara Height. Miss C and Miss D were there before Baby [J] and I.

When Miss C and Miss D reached the food court, the female worker asked them if they want to order beverage. They drejected politely. She was not happy, (I assume this according to her respone later on). When a male worker (I think is illegal worker too, I think he is from Nepal) wanted to clean the table for Miss C and Miss D, she immediately stop him from doing so. What a world! So, this means that the remain glasses were still on the table lor. Miss C damn pissed. #$&%$#@.

When Baby [J] and I reached, Miss C complaint to us about this unpleasant experience. Miss D was away to order food at that moment. Then, Miss C and I put away the remaining glasses on floor so that we have enough seats. As soon as Miss D settle down, and four of us having our breakfast, Miss C and Miss D complained this rudeness again and again. (Hahaha, they really pissed). Thus, from the way they complaining, both Baby [J] and I understood how unsatisfied they are. We chit-chat after that.

Moment later, the female worker approached to our direction, she was so damn pissed and collect the glasses that we placed on the floor. As soon as she collected the glasses, she scolded us. What she actually scolded, I'm not sure, as what she said was not in proper BM, the only word I understand from her sentences was "celaka"!

Miss C even pissed this time. Know what? The female worker not satisfied that we placed the glasses on floor and trouble her to clean up but no business to her stall (I guess), she then talk out loud the word "kambing" and pointed her finger to us. Not only that, she also told the same word to the workers near around her stall and pointed towards us. Thus, during that time, we kept on heared of the word "kambing".

I am still remain calm at this moment until the time when I got to know the female worker scold us with rude word.

We were doubt of the meaning of "kambing". We were doubt if there is any hidden meaning of this word. After asked for the meaning from the Malay aunty who running her business there, then only we knew that "kambing" is actually a bad word. Ngor deng! Yes, I am damn pissed this time. I have been living for 23 years thus far, I never experienced this, I mean nobody ever scold me with bad words!

Miss D and Baby [J] had video cam the stupid female worker. We had disscussed how to punish her. But due to we can't speak fluently in BM, the final conclusion that we came out was, to ask our another group member of our Advertising class Mr.Y to revenge for us tomorrow.

I am waiting for tomorrow.

April Fool

Today is my friend's birthday, but it is also a pity day for her (I think) as her pc and laptop got hacked by somebody and need to pay about 400 for repair. I could understand how miserable she is, as I faced the same in the past. Just hope that she able to get her laptop asap and re-do her assignment again which due date around the corner.

April Fool.
Well, I HATE April Fool this year!

Honestly, I never notice today is April Fool until I am fooled by him. He told me he was suffered by his headache and nose bleeding. As a girl friend, as I not able to by his side at this moment, the only way to help him is to let him rest first. I hope he will be better after some rest, and thus I decided to call him after his few hours of resting time. I still worrying.

He sound tired when answered my phone call. I think, he must be very suffer of that. I heartache about it. As soon as I asked why he insisted doesn't want to let his mom know about his condition since he sound so worse, he asked me: "Don't you know today is April Fool?"

Alright! FINE! I got nothing to respond. I remain silent. Yes! I am pissed!

Don't say that I can't take any joke. I don't think its my fault, neither you, ok? I am not pointing the arrow to you. I know you are trying to joke with me, but try to put yourself in my shoe, what if I told you the same thing? What if I tell you that my lower abdomen pain like hell and fall down from stair and leg broken? What if.... I bet you will worry me right?

Even though today is April Fool, but as a couple, you know I will worry you if your health are not in a good condition. Since you know that (I assume you know that), why still choose to use issue to joke with me? Can't you choose to use other trick?

You may claimed that I am serious this time, but I have my reason! I think no single couple could able to take this kind of joke during April Fool or whatever day!

As it is happened, let it be. Please do not use 'health' as a bait to fool me next time, please.

ITS NOT A HAPPY APRIL FOOL.

Man. This called M-A-N

Conversation between a reporter and a successful business man: (it was paraphrased)

R= Reporter
B= Business man

R= Sir, could you please share with our audience of what makes you become so successful in your business?

B= Oh well, it's all because of my wife. She is the one who should receive this pride instead.

R= Although you are a millionaire now, why you still choose to work everything by yourself instead of allocated them to your employee? What makes you work so hard actually?

B= Hahaha, once again, my wife. As a man, I need to be a reliable man to my wife, so I need to constantly work harder so that I have enough money for her to spend. I would never want her to live in poor with me.

HOooooo, how sweet the man. This called M-A-N!!!.

奇怪

怎么可能会吵架吵到笑呢？
怎么可能？
真的是我人生里的第一次！

话说今天约了我的他谈判，好好妥协一番，怎么知道，我们竟边吵边笑！
虽然如此，但我们还是达到协议。

不明白的是，
为什么我们会边吵边笑！？
奇怪！