Chose = Enjoy

It's just a month ever since I joined this new company.. I knew its not an easy task to survive here, but  I chose to accept this challenge and prepared myself of going to have a work-life imbalance lifestyle.. Nobody force me to do this, but myself..

From the 1st day I reported to work, I told myself that I have to put more efforts and build up reputation again.. Therefore I willing to do anything that assigned to me and do my very best to absorb whatever information that sent to me.. This one month time, I have attended countless training and meetings, went for numbers of client meetings, conducted numbers of interviews with candidates and bla bla bla.. But still, I am still in the midst of learn to juggle around to achieve all the KPIs.. Seriously, there is no free time slot for you to relax or do something else.. And there is the reason why there is no much different although Facebook or Skype are blocked..

Although I am one of the newbies in this batch, somehow, from their body languages and the questions they asked me, I know, I need to perform... for they have high expectation on me! ...for I am the only consultant from recruitment background while the rest of the consultants are from the industry they covering now.. ...for I used to be the top performer in my former company... for I earned good comments and recommendations from others.. And now, trust me, I am stress like hell!! I am constantly remind myself to be careful and alert and need to put more effort into the tasks I do. Afterall result is what they wanted the most and that's the only thing that can prove them didn't made the wrong decision to take me in.. Therefore, I fight, I do, I learn, I ask and I study...

My team undeniably supportive to me, they never pressure me but helped me a lot.. I appreciate.. And same to my manager.. I was once a leader of 2 juniors, I understood the feelings and the pressures from the management..  Therefore, I want to perform and then he wouldnt get question by the management.. And Today, I cried!! I can't imagine that I cried out of sudden!! And I know, I am pushing myself too hard and I am pressured myself too much..

But anyhow, I won't give up..
I chose this as my career, therefore I enjoy the toughness, the challenges and the obstacles I would face..
I chose to let go everything I had in the past, therefore I am enjoy and welcome the weird alien IT terminalogy that possible to facilitate me to build up my own empire..

I chose, therefore I enjoy.. No matter what shits happen...
I enjoy talking to people from different level...
I enjoy listen to their stories and experiences...
I enjoy the challenges I have on human..
I enjoy seeing the uncertainties on mankind..
I enjoy doing negotiation..
I enjoy the process...
I enjoy the career I chose...
Therefore I am thankful to the obstacles I am having now and glad that I still able to take it..

Though cried, but I will not give up!! Never!!