Gastric, get rid from me

I took my medicine regularly

I have my meal regularly

But why still attack by gastric?

The time of its attacks is more punctual than News on TV.

Please!! Get rid from me!

Shit! I vomit again!!!

放心

我不自私
你要走
我不留

为了以后
本就应该向前冲
我选择防守和捍卫你我的堡垒

准备好一切
继续未完的路吧
为自己打下专属天空

我不任性
我会好好的
放心吧！

选择相信

真的可以吗？
真的可以做到吗？
真的不会变吗？
真的可以熬得过吗？

突然，很多问题出现在脑海里
我知道不应该
但它们就是围绕着我

我知道
我清楚
我应该用乐观的角度看待
相信你我真的可以做到
然而
这是需要时间的见证
你我都知道这

以目前的状况来说
真得不能决定什么
但我选择相信你的话
相信你对我的承诺

不用担心或忧心
我会照顾自己
不会为你带来不必要的麻烦

将在世界的另一个角落的你
务必要记住这些日子的一切
因为你 我选择相信

我会变得更勇敢
我相信

突然的消息

脑袋process着手机里的信息
眼泪已在眼眶里打转
我忍
我压抑
绝不能让它夺眶而出。。。
觉不能让身边的人知道或察觉我心情的变换。。。
不能让他人察觉一点点地蛛丝马迹

我知道
我又想哭了。。 。
我心疼
突然，觉得一切变得很短暂。。。

很想哭
但
这次我知道我是为了什么而哭泣

你说你会离开
为了以后而打拼
我不反对
我选择支持
毕竟这不是一件坏事

我没生气
只是觉得。。。
心里五味杂全
根本没有任何一个字可以形容我的心情

不能说我不能接受
因为心里知道有一天你是会离开的
只是
没想过会在今天知道

突然的消息
我选择接受
我选择面对
我选择挑战

心里不是滋味
但
眼泪决不能掉

我祝福你

我的纪录

眼泪不曾停止从眼眶滑落。。。

第一次哭得这么凄惨。。。

第一次连续哭了一小时。。。

第一次放声大哭。。。

第一次眼泪不停的流。。

第一次觉得这么没用到极点。。。

第一次。。。。

眼泪到底从哪里来？？？

怎么那么多眼泪？

我想停止哭泣。。。

但它就是不愿停止滑落。。。

边写边哭。。。

眼睛根本就看不清楚。。。

LOSING

TEARS DROPPED ALL OF THE SUDDEN

NON-STOP

COULDN'T BE STOPPED, I TRIED BUT FAILED

I KNOW

I JUST WANNA TO CRY

WHAT'S THE POINT OF DOING THIS ALL THESE WHILE?

I DISCOVERED I LEARNED NOTHING

POOR THING

MESSED UP

DESERVED IT

STRUGGLING

I TOLD MYSELF NOT TO CRY NO MATTER WHAT

BUT

THING TURNED UP WITH I CRIED ALL OF THE SUDDEN

I CANT TAKE IT

WHERE IS THE PATH?

HEAVEN OF MY SOUL?

SEARCHING

-RE-FORMAT-

Traffic SUCK!!

I like to drive, but I just can’t bear with the speed which is below than 80km/j. Anyone who drive with this speed, I called them “turtle”. Thus, I will never like to drive during traffic-jam. But today’s traffic really suck!! @$%#^&$%&*^#

Initially I planned to finish-up my notes before evening, but the stupid traffic occupied all my times. GEK SEI YAN la……. Drove for more than 9 hours today, be a driver for others. It’s ok actually, I don mind, but the traffic really irritated me and the worse was sister threw the tantrum to me as she late to Halo Forest for her audition, sounds as if its all my fault like that!!! She was the one who kept on leading me to the wrong direction and because of that, I kept against the traffic rules. DAMN! I didn’t mad because of it but she threw the tantrum to me. What a world!! I am so so so so so so FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!

The traffic really pissed me off; I lose my patience with it. S-U-C-K! I am extremely intolerant with it. ARG!!! The longer I stuck in the situation, the more it irritated me, and these irritations became a force which reinforces me to speed after the traffic become smother, whenever there is a space that my car could fit in sufficiently, I will follow that lane. I just don’t wanna to wait and wait. It’s enough!

Emo....

Emo... Emo... Emo....

Suddenly, I feel I am:

• stupid
• learn nothing
• know nothing
• useless
• irritating

I'm hiding... escaping... ignoring....